urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dohoe dohoe dohoe 2008-04-24T04:56:27Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dohoe:13436 2008-04-24T04:54:41Z 2008-04-24T04:56:27Z basically i do this shit to myself because i know in advance what i am getting into and im all i have to blame. my mistake.<br />problem solved.<br />learning from this repetitive mistake is the real problem.<br />hmm... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dohoe:13191 2008-04-24T04:35:44Z 2008-04-24T04:35:44Z <div class='appwidget appwidget-qotd' id='LJWidget_8'> <table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0"><tr><td><div style='border: 1px solid #000; padding: 6px;'><p>What is your definition of cheating?</p><p style='font-size: 0.8em;'></p><br /><p><input type="button" value="Answer" onclick="document.location.href='http://www.livejournal.com/update.bml?qotd=370'" /> <a target="_blank" href="http://www.livejournal.com/misc/latestqotd.bml?qid=370">View 501 Answers</a></p></div></td></tr></table></div><!-- end .appwidget-qotd --> cheating is getting an advantage in a situation in a discreet manner. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dohoe:13047 2008-03-29T06:41:18Z 2008-03-29T06:41:18Z okay, well spring break surely blew major cock.<br />tmrws gonna suck too, i know it! :D<br />i do not understand why whenever i am flying on top of the world, best mood ever, it never seems to last.<br />why the fuck is that?<br />it always ALWAYS has to come down.<br />like i proudly say not to long ago ive never been happier.<br />all of a sudden. BAM! ive been feelin like shit:[<br />why the fuck have i done nothing productive so far this spring break<br />i feel like a fucking bum<br />whatever, screw this shit.<br /><br />ps. why the fuck do i only write in these shits when im in a bad mood.<br />i seem like a depressive fuck haha urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dohoe:12769 2008-03-29T06:07:28Z 2008-03-29T06:07:28Z i figured after ...lets say a good 2 years of the same exact bullshit, people would actually grow the fuck up. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dohoe:12318 2008-01-02T00:20:38Z 2008-01-02T00:20:38Z 2008! wooooooo:]<br />im pretty damn satisfied about how my year ended<br />a great way to end the year<br />hopefully this new year is just as good:] urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dohoe:12119 2007-11-04T07:09:42Z 2007-11-04T07:13:39Z wow, i totally forgot people use livejournal. haha.<br />i always just end up using this when i cant fall asleep and theres nothing else to do and i want to let my feelings out some way or the other lol<br />goddamnit its been so fucking cold out i NEED winter clothes like asap<br />i havent been shopping in forever. what the fuck.<br />and ive just been online shopping and feel like a loser.<br />i want to do some ACTUAL shopping, thank you very much.<br />im super pissed though because i was looking through all the new shit i need and i realize how much shit i DID have before i started letting people borrow my clothes.<br />and how much fucking money i wasted allowing people to just borrow my shit and never give it back.<br />like im SO sick and tired of this crap right now.<br />i have like absolutely NO clothes anymore because bitches cant keep track of things that arent even theirs. like be more responsible for other's people shit, seriously.<br />im sorry, but how annoying is it? come on.<br />i am DEFINITELY NEVER letting ANYONE borrow anything ever again. <br />okay i just had to let that out, haha. feel better now:]<br /><br />anywayyyyyy, i having a tincy bit of friend problems lately.<br />i found to realize theres not that many people to count on and to just learn to not give a shit about anyone i used to because they never gave a shit about me.<br />what fucking ever yo. i cant stand some people right now.<br />why cant anyone just grow the fuck up already.<br />and i especially hate when people think they have control of your life and want to change who you are for their benefit.<br />alright, JUST to let you know.<br />i think you are fucking CRAZY if you are gonna try and change me because <br />first of all, you obviously cant accept me as a friend. <br />second, i will not deal with this bullshit. <br />and third, i wont change for anyone.<br />OH and i fucking hate people who are totally against one thing and then the next second act like they want to do it.<br />OH MY FUCKING GOD.<br />get a life.<br />dont criticize me because you are jealous that you cannot do it and then complain about not doing it when you said you hate it because YOU DONT MAKE SENSE AT ALL.<br />godfuckingdamnit.<br />okay, i think im done with venting my feelings.<br />i might have came on a little strong but i think i got over everything:] urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dohoe:11784 2007-08-20T09:33:39Z 2007-08-20T09:33:39Z pre-season is just a few hours away. oh god.<br />i love how im up too, when i should seriously be sleeping and resting sine the next few hours of my life will basically be hell.<br />yerp, i must be the smartest person doing what im doing right now. haha.<br />goodbye partying for a really long time:[<br />blah. that makes me incredibly sad. but im super dedicated to field hockey so its a sacrifice im willing to take:/<br />basically summer is over, since i cant really do anything now since field hockey.<br />whatever, ill be in shape before school starts:]<br />i guess. pftttttt. i should really get some sleep. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dohoe:11765 2007-08-10T16:47:47Z 2007-08-10T16:47:47Z hmmm.. this summer has been pretty interesting lately<br />partially kind of lame, but for the most part i had a pretty good time<br />warped tour was probably what made up for it<br />it was amazing&lt;3 beats last years by like 6248989179582018 times:]<br />on the down side, some people have just been causing severe irritation to me recently<br />but i could live with it i guess-.-<br />as summer is ending.. all i really want is for it to be complete.<br />but thats not possible when i always feel like a little part is missing:/<br />and i think i know whats missing. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dohoe:11405 2007-07-13T07:54:12Z 2007-07-13T07:54:12Z its either extremely boring or just too much to handle.<br />perfect to describe my summer so far. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dohoe:11140 2007-07-01T09:56:38Z 2007-07-01T09:56:38Z ive never been happier in my entire life! :]]]]]]]]]<br />&lt;33333333333 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dohoe:10960 2007-06-11T08:24:59Z 2007-06-11T08:24:59Z blahhh two more weeks of school left<br />im so happy this shit is finally over<br />actually i shouldnt be celebrating quite yet<br />goddamn finals are this/next week<br />ugh most stressful time ever<br />just because it determines basically my entire grade<br />ive been borderline on almost every subject<br />i have like a 90ish on everything<br />and if i screw it up it will obv go down:[<br />and i dont want it to!<br />because i love it when my mommy is proud of me:]<br />haha im so gay but shes been super mad at me lately<br />but before we were bonding i guess hahah<br />I JUST NEED ALL A's GODDAMNIT<br />anywayssssss<br />im so confused right now<br />i really hate boys<br />theyre all the fucking same<br />im never gonna find one that will supply me with what i want<br />nor am i gonna find one that can settle with me and only me<br />fucking dirtbags<br />the one time where i think im where im suppose to be<br />and finally happy with the right guy<br />i get proven wrong<br />whatever im so tired of this shit<br />i feel like an idiot for even thinking i had a chance<br />oh wellllllll theres more fish in the sea<br />psh, who am i kidding<br />im never gonna find anyone, i know it<br />and i get so confused at how some girls can just get so many guys<br />people are probably laughing at me writing this<br />but im being completely serious<br />and no, i dont get a lot of guys, so please<br />im tired of this image everyone has of me lately<br />it really pisses me off and i just need to get it off my chest<br />okay, you dont know the real story about anything that has gone on in my life and the shit you hear is probably more false than true<br />i try things to make myself feel better about the horrible things that happened in my life and it didnt work out how i planned<br />and i fall into little traps people set up for me<br />and got hurt in the process<br />but now ive learned form my mistakes<br />and im still the same person i was how ever many years ago<br />so you shouldnt be treating me any differently<br />so you all could just fuck yourselves if you all really believe that bullshit that was SO long ago and dont even have any idea what really went on<br />because if you think i was proud or happy of any of it<br />or even wanted any of it to occur<br />then you are sooooo wrong on way many many levels<br />okay, thanks.<br />whatever, im just happy my real friends will always stick by me<br />thats all i really need urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dohoe:10672 2007-05-03T08:47:54Z 2007-05-03T08:47:54Z i cant sleeeeeep at all and its 4 am<br />super gayyyyy<br />i have a huge test and two quizzes tmrw too<br />perhaps ill be sleeping through most of them<br />and just bullshit every answer i possibly could<br />actually, ill miraciously do good on them most likely... well hopefully<br />since school has been a main priority for me lately<br />and ive improved tremendously in that area since the beginning of the year<br />and it actually makes me happy most of the life<br />since im usually thought of as "dumb"<br />so yayyyyyy<br />i dont know, i just feel as if there isnt too much to really live for for me recently<br />i try too hard for some of the stupidest things<br />and im finally ready to give up, or i have given up<br />theres not really too much to look forward in my life<br />so im trying my hardest to set goals for myself<br />but im not too good at that either<br />ive been pretty content lately<br />but theres always that one thing thats missing<br />and im not sure what yet<br />or maybe i do, but im afraid to admit it<br />i think ive come to the conclusion that i can never really be good enough for anyone<br />like honestly, anyone.<br />i can never reach that standard that you ever so need<br />and it fucking bugs me out<br />im happy i moved on, but its just always another stupid challenge with you and every other guy<br />seriously, what does she have that i dont, i wanna know<br />thats what ive been contemplating for these past few days<br />and i barely even know you for the matter<br />but theres just something about you<br />ugh i cant even think straight at all<br />im gonna go make some coffee so i could last the day<br />hopefully i dont take another nap after school<br />and end up trying to fight insomnia all night again:P urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dohoe:10251 2007-04-21T14:33:26Z 2007-04-21T14:33:26Z the thing i want the most i can never getttt<br />i guess you can never really get what you want if you think about it<br />it pretty much sucks<br />ugh i hate it the most when you take things for granted<br />and when you dont have it anymore<br />its all you want<br />it fucking kills me inside<br />blahhhh im dumb<br />:/ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dohoe:9993 2007-04-01T14:27:31Z 2007-04-01T14:27:31Z i really should think twice about who i choose to trust nowadays. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dohoe:9973 2007-03-25T16:35:25Z 2007-03-25T16:35:25Z MY LIFE IS BORING, OK BYE!<br />:[[[[[ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dohoe:9711 2007-03-17T00:50:54Z 2007-03-17T00:50:54Z i really have enjoyed these past couple of days. :] urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dohoe:9268 2007-03-06T22:44:58Z 2007-03-06T22:47:48Z some people seriously need to get the fuck over things<br />and if you really dont like me, then you honestly need to stop being so fucking fake.<br />alright, thank youuuu<br />but besides that,<br />everything has been pretty damn good:D<br />im really looking foward to some things in the near future:]<br />things have been so postive lately and i really love it<br />and i hope things could continue this way<br />and hopefully more things will work out for me<br />woooop woooooop! :]]] urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dohoe:8970 2007-02-24T18:46:26Z 2007-02-24T18:46:26Z this week is improving, i suppose. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dohoe:8585 2007-02-19T18:02:17Z 2007-02-19T18:02:17Z whyyyyy am i so weak and unstable.<br />i need to be strong. for the sake of everyone. and myself. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dohoe:8360 2007-02-15T21:59:18Z 2007-02-15T21:59:18Z i really dont understand why things have been this way lately<br />i reallllllly dont<br />what did i do to deserve this<br />my life is already falling apart<br />and this just makes everything worse<br />i dont know<br />i guess after ive so good at hiding so many things from my parents recently<br />that it just became so addicting and i took advantage of all of it<br />and now they just HAD to find out everything<br />like all in the same fucking day<br />jesus christttttt<br />like i dont know whats worse than seeing your parents like cry because their child is a disappointment to them because it just hurts so much for me to see that<br />why did i pick that dumb day to do everything<br />i basically just fucked myself over<br />i have no privileges now what so ever<br />im just screwedddddd<br />i dont see how anything could get worse<br />i really dont<br /><br />theres probably only one thing my parents dont know about me now<br />and if they ever find out<br />i dont know what i could do with myself<br />ugh everyone should really just stay away from me<br />im such a horrible person<br />i dont know how i live knowing all these terrible things ive been doing<br />and how i keep fucking up<br />why must it be this hardddd<br />:[ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dohoe:7998 2007-02-13T02:11:36Z 2007-02-13T02:11:36Z there is seriously something wrong with meeeeeeeee<br />:P urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dohoe:7887 2007-02-02T00:46:26Z 2007-02-02T00:46:26Z what the fuck is going onnnnnnnnnnnnn<br />everythings so fucking complex<br />i dont know anymore<br />like about anything<br />I NEVER DO<br />GODDAMN<br />like i seriously thought i was happy<br />and i always THINK i am<br />but at some point during that period i get proven wrong<br />so you know what? FUCK THIS.<br />i hate everything about life right now<br />i especially hate my school<br />if i could i would seriously just ughhh<br />do people really get a joy out of hurting me<br />i dont even understand how some shit is even funny<br />its fucked upppppp<br />i wish some people could just leave me alone and shut the fuck up<br />ughhhhhhhhhh<br />and i hate having feelings<br />but whatever<br />FUCK MY FEELINGS<br />im not gonna let them take over my actions anymore<br />cus you know what?<br />they only screw things up<br />not only for myself<br />but everyone else<br />im the reason why people are unhappy<br />and it needs to stop<br />its happened too many times to count already<br />and now its gonna stop<br />for good<br />and the thing that really sucks<br />is that all i ever do is blame everything on myself<br />everything is my fucking fault tho<br />so whateverrrr<br />i really dont deserve anything<br /><br /><br />i feel like such shit right now<br />jeez<br />:[ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dohoe:7673 2007-01-24T01:32:24Z 2007-01-24T01:32:24Z i am starting to feel mad guilty..<br />:[[[[[ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dohoe:7257 2007-01-13T18:44:07Z 2007-01-13T18:44:07Z you walk like a duckkkkkkk<br />":D" urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dohoe:7006 2007-01-09T07:40:27Z 2007-01-09T07:40:27Z blah. i dont know anymore.<br />i do this all the time.<br />and i can only blame myself.<br />because i put this on myself.<br />i could make some pretty good decisions sometimes.<br />but i end up choosing the hard way. ugh.<br />why does he do this to me?<br />i was doing so good without him.<br />and he manages to fuck up once again.<br />or maybe its me that fucked up.<br />i dont know, whatever. <br />i just hope he stops talking to me.<br />maybe that could solve things.<br />because "friends" could never work out for us.<br />so fuck that shitttttttt.<br />i dont understand why nothing can ever work out for me.<br />its really... ugh.<br />i need someone. :/<br /><br /><br />and school has been mad stressful.<br />and im a tad scared of next year.<br />because i got sent to guidence today about a certain "rumor" going around in the high school.<br />hah, it makes me laugh that people are talking shit in a school i dont even go to:P<br />good job, guys.<br />whatever, i think i really changed now though.<br />im not gonna be doing stupid shit anytime soon.<br />i know that for sure.<br />no good comes out of it anyways.<br />blah.<br /><br /><br />i think i lost a lot of friends.<br />but im not sure if i even want them back.<br />because i dont need too many people in my life to make me happy.<br />i think i have a good amount right about now.<br />but too bad im not happy.<br />i thought i was a while ago.<br />i dont know why i stopped doing what i wanted to just because people wanted me to.<br />thats not good.<br /><br />yeah, theres way too much on my mind right now.<br />i dont know how to fucking deal with it.